taking stock.

i have been wanting to get back to writing for a long time. i just haven’t made it a priority. time to change that.

i started blogging in 2005. in internet years, that’s like five lifetimes ago. i somehow connected with women from all around this planet. we created a community and i poured myself into documenting life through words (and photography). then life happened. facebook + instagram happened. the oil biz happened. i also got divorced. it made me unsure of how i wanted to keep documenting life. it was a bit of a grey area in this life of mine.

it’s going to be baby steps, but i’m back. cass called some of us out. i figured it was time i answer her … in the form of a blog post. i’m rusty, so bear with me.

we have so much to catch up on … but i’m going to start by taking stock.

making: essential oil rollers for my mommy friends. because all the people need all the oils in their life.

drinking: diet coke. i need DCA … diet coke anonymous.

reading: multiple books. i swear, i can’t focus. i have started three books in the last three months. haven’t finished any of them yet. do cool shit, by miki agrawal. love warrior, by glennon doyle melton. to sell is human, by daniel pink. so, wish me luck on finishing these. and then starting the other 203 books in the basket.

wanting: a new office chair. i literally just have to decide + order. but do i go cheaper and risk it being horrible or do i go expensive and wonder if i could have been fine with cheaper? i know i should go sit in them, but who has time to actually go to a store?

looking: for christmas gifts. i love giving. i love having the gifts really mean something. i just often overthink it all. typical.

deciding: how many episodes of ‘the killing’ i want to watch on netflix tonight.

enjoying: my life. i am incredibly happy + am doing my best to focus on each day. i am super good at future tripping, but that just messes up living in the now.

waiting: for 207 miles to become 0.

liking: my job … for so many reasons.

loving: having two of the coolest little humans call me mom.

pondering: the bigger picture. pipe dreams + crazy goals.

listening: to all the music. i am obsessed. OBSESSED. a handful on the current rotation include onerepublic, the weeknd, kaleo, alessia cara, the lumineers … it’s hard to even narrow it down. give me all the music.

buying: supplies for happy mail. i love showing my essential oil team + customers how much i appreciate them.

hoping: it snows soon. i have a love/hate relationship with it, but i’m ready. the first snow is like having magic fall from the sky.

wearing: sweatpants + a tank. the mom uniform on a crazy friday night.

disliking: bullies … of all ages. all people need to get better at being kind.

opening: halloween candy. essential oil bottles. and wordpress. holla!

giggling: at the things my kids say. i will do better at logging them all here. they are the things i never want to forget. ever.

feeling: loved.

embracing: that i’m not in control of all things + that’s okay.

… and just like that, i was back to blogging.

i’m like hey, what’s up? hello.

hi. my name is jenny. somehow, you have arrived at the mad paddle. welcome!

you might wonder, why mad paddle?

one of the definitions of MAD is:
marked by intense and often chaotic activity : wild <a mad scramble>

and well, i fell like everything in my life is a mad paddle … somewhere. actually, i don’t even know where. i’m always just paddling. so, that’s where it was born. a lot has changed in my world in the past couple years … and that name fits how life flows now.

i am finally dusting off my blogging skills. it’s time to talk about adventure and hustlin’ in the land of 10,000 lakes. i am pretty excited to start documenting life again. i hope you keep stopping in to read about everything from my travels to the latest joke my kid cracked at the dinner table.

in the meantime. you might need to meet the main characters in my life. there are my gremlins, tucker (age 10) and levi (age 6) and my boyfriend, nick. they are pretty rad.